特に何も言うことはないけど。。。

毎日、日本語で何か買う書くべきだ。Chromeで「Enter」のボタンを押すと、ポストする!でもまだ終わらないよ~

Fixed my twitter account for the Super Challenge and that’s linked in the sidebar now. I’d missed my tutoring for a couple weeks, but I did it yesterday? Which sucked. I haven’t talked in a while, and it’s clear how quickly speaking/writing degenerates compared to reading/listening.

Also ended up ordering more books from White Rabbit, ahhh. So expensive, but I wanted to get more books I could read that aren’t … a strain, basically. The effort to reward ratio on the graded reader set I have and the bilingual texts are just skewed enough on effort to make them not “fun” enough to motivate me to read them. Kinda likewise for HP, though I’m glad I have them.

Anyway, so I picked up some easier sets of graded readers and some textbooks (one set is more audio-oriented, so I’m hoping I’ll be able to do reviews in the car or at the gym or something).

I’m attempting to move my language log to Tumblr. Partly because I have been rethinking how I want to use HTLAL to aid my language learning anyway, as I find that in a lot of ways I find it more depressing than motivating. Thoughtdumping is nice, as is the potential for getting useful tips/tricks/reviews, but trying to be polite and nice while also wanting to tell people to fuck off and stop telling me I’m doing things wrong because it doesn’t fit their definition of right* was exhausting, and I don’t want to have to deal with it right now. Later or in a different language, it seems like it might be more useful, but for me with Japanese, right now, all I really want is a space to note my own thoughts/feelings about my progress (or lack thereof), and possibly commiserate with people in similar situations.

That said, I also really need to somehow motivate myself to writing in Japanese semi-regularly. I tried Lang-8, which I know would be better in general, so I could have corrections, but trying to deal with reading corrections and thanking people for them kind of makes me want to hide under a table and never come out, so I thought perhaps I’d try to write them somewhere else for a while.

じゃあ、明日、日本語の先生と復習しています。すぐハリーポッターを読んでみたいつもりです。多分来年両親といっしょに9月に日本へお婆さんに合って行きます。だからがんばりますね。

*Look, I’m well aware that ranking myself by some arbitrary number set is illogical and a bad idea in reality, and how many words I know according to an app is not necessarily meaningful in terms of my actual communication skills, but right now, the only motivating thing I’d found was being able to tick off levels. So coming into my thread to tell me that it’s pointless and useless and ultimately going to lead to burnout was kind of like seeing me on a stool trying to reach something on a high counter, and instead of just handing me the thing I was reaching for or leaving me alone, deciding to kick the stool out from under me and tell me I didn’t want that thing anyway and it’s pointless to try to reach it, so I should just occupy myself elsewhere. Just saying. Not helpful.